Just Be Yourself

In the voice of Napoleon Dynamite, "Gosssssssh!" These three words are sooooo annoying to me. I can't speak for everyone in the whole wide world, but I can speak for myself and those who struggle with our catch phrase of the day, "just be yourself". Usually, it's not that hard to be myself, but sometimes it can be a huge challenge, especially when it comes to the opposite sex. I don't know if men have it easier, but, for gals like me, this being yourself crap isn't easy.

It's especially hard, because you don't wanna go through the rejection of someone NOT liking when you are being yourself. Dude, just thinking about it hurts, ouch! So in fear of rejection and all that it represents I do this thing where I put on that super power mask of "Whatever Girl". I put on that mask and then I just start thinking and saying that super power word, "whatever!". The mask gives me the feelings that I'm strong, untouchable, concealed, detached, and safe from the perils of men.

I know that these feelings are temporary and fabricated, but they give me that fleeting moment of strength when my ego and sense of self is knocked down cold. I do hope to give up the masked life, but I really don't believe that the equation of ME-THE MASK = GOOD ENOUGH. One day soon, I want to be brave and bold enough to retire my mask and "just be myself " in front of the world and in front of that one guy that will like me without my mask.