29 1/2

I remember a time when I would tack on that extra 1/2 onto my age. I did it when I was 12, 15, 17, 20 and 25. All significant numbers in the world of age. Many years ago I couldn't wait to be older, but now I just wish that I can stay forever twenty-one, sorta.

I'm also in a funk and a half. I'm not sure if it's the age factor, b/c I'm turning 3-0 in about a month or if it's just that season in my life. I wanna pat myself on the back and say "Shake it off, girl! You aint getting old", but the truth is that I am. To my surprise, I am not immune to the maladies of time, and I suppose the surprise that accompanies me today is some of the signs of youth that will soon leave me as time tick-tocks away.

Does youth = hope, dreams, passion, excitement, etc...? Maybe in my mind it did and now I feel all that has kind of faded in the background as I not only age on the outside, but on the inside, too. :( I've watched enough TV to see the magic of plastic surgery and miracle creams that defy the signs of time, but does anyone have the miracle cream that would DEFY the aging that is taking place inside? Let me know, so I can buy a bottle.