Crush

So I haven't had a crush in a while. A couple of months ago I thought someone at my work was kinda cute, but then he talked too much and too loud. Anyways, my new crush is Brandon Boyd of Incubus. I didn't even know he existed until the ubiquitous GAP ads. I'm basing my crush on a 2 minute ad where I only get 10 seconds of Brandon stoically sharing his favorite song Elvis Costello's Alison, which happens to be mine. We already have so much in common!!! We were meant to be. (Take a moment to roll your eyes)

Okay, peoples, help me figure out what it is about that stoic veneer of Brandon that's so attractive? It's weird that I love it when guys appear to look stoic, cool, and chill. Actually, it's kinda HOT! Perhaps it's the mystery of the unknown behind the stoicism that's so alluring? That is a possibility, since I have major issues with intimacy. This makes sense, since the antithesis of intimacy is distance, stoicism, anonymity etc.... Since closeness feels so threatening to me distance and the unknown becomes very seductive. The funny thing is once the unknown becomes known, then the allure fades.

Actually, to be honest, it's not that the unknown becoming known that's scary, but that I will be known scares me more than anything. Hm! So I suppose I should break the news to Brandon that I cannot promise him that whatever tomorrow brings I'll be there with open arms and open eyes.