Whatever and Ever, Aaaaamen!

Yesterday I went body boarding with a friend. I love the ocean and all its vastness. Didn't catch any good waves at all, but got whacked 4 times by the waves. I still have sand in my ears. I have to say I love getting tossed by the waves, because it's kinda scary and exciting at the same time. It's the threat of almost drowning that gets me.

Anyways, as I was floating on my board I was telling my friend how my life sucks. I basically had a little aquatic pity party. I was complaining how things do not come easy for me, and that I have to work hard for stuff. Okay....I know, I'm whining big time....whaaaaa! Sometimes...it just doesn't seem fair, ya' know. I know, I'm blessed with good friends and my siblings are pretty cool, but other than that it's hard not to be disenchanted with my life.

I can hear that one person saying to me, "But Sonya, you have a job, shelter, food, health, friends, money in the bank." Yah, I know what I have, but is this the formula to a good and content life? It seems indulgent for me to feel this way, especially in light of what has happened in the Gulf Coast, but I'm not sure how to get out of this Post-Modern daze. My body boarding friend advised that I pray to God, but that's the last thing I want to do. I'm totally turned off by the Holy One, and I'm not sure why. The only prayer I can offer today are these words of discontentment and disillusionment. I hope that this will be good enough to pass through to Him.